Thursday, August 11, 2011

It has been a long year so far...

It has been a long, long time since my last blog entry. 4 months and 25 days to be exact. Over these past couple of months I have underwent a lot of changes in my life. And I have had a lot of time to think about the things that really matter in life. That being said I need to get something off of my chest that I have been thinking about for a while now…

What’s that thing that’s a mix between a donkey and a horse? You know the one that they use to go down the grand canyon. A Mule? Is that what that is? Who’s idea was this? All I know is the horse probably didn’t have a say in the matter. You walk up to a hose and say, “see that donkey over there? Would you hit that?” the horse will immediately say “oh hell no.” How drunk do you think you would have to get a horse before he will have sex with a donkey? How drunk before the horse starts looking at the donkey and says, “you know if you look past the ears and the nose she really isn’t that bad.” Seriously. At least try and mate something cool like a lion with an albatross so at least we will have awesome flying bird-lions to fight the terrorists with.

There, I’m glad I said that. Now we can move on.

Over the past few months I have quit my job. A good job with good money, but a job I hated. I have gone back to school to be a pharmacist, because if the real world has taught me anything its that having a degree in graphic design is about as useful as a kardashian sister on jeopardy. I am a lot poorer, and a lot happier. I never thought I would say those two things together. I always though that money=happiness=fun. I always tried to convince myself that I didn’t think this way but I did. And it’s not really true is it? I think that the money brings a sense of security which is often confused with happiness, some of the happiest moments in my life are when I let go of control and just let what happens happen. It’s like when your driving a car. If you drive a Volvo, the world’s safest car, you feel very good, very secure. Safe? Yes. Comfortable? Yes. But happy? Not really. Complacent yes. But fun? No. You need a big car, like a Viper, or a Ferrari, with an engine the size of Cayce Anthony’s conscience at the front, and two seats, and real wheel drive, and no traction control and no room for anything more that a tampon in the trunk. And when you go around a corner a little too fast and you see the tree coming a little too close and there is smoke from the tires and all of the sudden the car catches just before you hit said tree side on killing your passenger and maiming you for life, that’s fun. That’s happiness. loosing control for a little bit. Letting life happen instead of trying desperately overcorrect. You may have botched that corner but at least the Ferrari gave you the opportunity to either mess up, OR look like a driving god. And if you survive there is always another corner coming up that you can take what you have learned from the first corner and try again. Pretty soon you’re Michael Schumacher.

Look, all I’m trying to say is don’t get stuck in a situation that doesn’t allow you to take risks and have a little fun. I could have looked up in 10 years from the same desk with the same people and just though, “what if.” My bank account would be happy, my life would be complacent but would I be? Life is a lot like the Ferrari described above. It’s big, and its serious, and its fun, and its ridiculous and bright red, and if you get it wrong your going into a tree, but If you get it right it sublime, and its beautiful. That doesn’t mean there won’t be some tire smoke along the way but that’s half the fun right? So don’t drive it like it’s a Volvo. Besides, you can always replace your tires.